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(note: this blog is dedicated to all my friends and to other honorable readers)

It's 7am plus something now...
yeap, im blogging at 7am something on MONDAY...T.T
and the reason is~~~~i missed school  T.T
actually i didn't wanted to skip school...
i missed my carpool at the morning due to my sickness that kept me sleeping, then when i woke up, my carpool just left...T.T
sad case... so i had no other option but to awaken one of my family members to fetch me to school=3
MY SISTER...oh god she just keep on sleeping no matter how many times i call her-.-
MY BROTHER...i would be happy to make him fetch me to school, but sadly he has work to do at 9am, so i better not wake him up=(
MY FATHER...he would most probably be the one that will surely fetch me to school, since his the one that pays for my school fees=P but i will surely get a "set" of scolding as my breakfast..so its not really that wise to wake him up!!^^
lastly~~
MY MOTHER...YES!! my mother... she would be the person that love me the most in this world, she would do anything for me!=D (note: please don't think wrongly, and enjoy this blog with clean mind|^^V)

So i choose to awaken my mother=P
when i stepped to her door, OMG!!
shes already awaken!!
shes actually drinking water at the desk near her room's door...
so she asked me, what are you doing here at 7am!!
i answered, i was sick, so i didn't notice my alarm ringing...
and i missed the carpool *cough* *cough*...
then she realise that i was sick, and my voice changed completely ( actually 80%=P)
she told me to stay at home, if i go at 7am i would be late and reach at around  8am anyway...
so i told her that i needed to go to school...really badly...
but she didn't let me T.T
after that, while i was applying medicine, she asked me: "whats so important today, why must you go to school?"
i said: "nothing important is happening today actually, just that im the key holder of the class, and if i don't go to school, then they don't have the key to open the class door!"
she asked: "so there is only one key for the door lock?"
i replied: "nope, there is another one with the coordinators, but my friends will get scolding if they want to get from there...i don't want them to get scolded..."
then she kept quiet....i thought i said something wrong, so i also kept quiet to avoid unnecessary argument=P
then she said something... : "Friendship is important, but so as yourself."
she then said: "do you think your friends will actually appreciate you just because you bring the key for them although your sick?"
i kept quiet, i had nothing to say...i was completely speechless...
so i had my medicine, and she went back to bed. i went in my room, i wouldn't sleep...
the conversation i had with my mother just keep raging in my mind....
i kept thinking and thinking...
and thats why im here now writing a blog><
i thought... would my friends appreciate  for all that i have done for them?
or maybe they are just treating me like a item that helps them?
to be honest, i really have no idea how my friends think of me...
all i know is that alot of people hate me(i doubt it^^)
and i know all of you wish that i can f**k off or  just leave you alone...
but some of you dont know that i did alot of things behind that nearly got me in serious trouble... but in the end people still hate me...
its probably because of my suckie attitude and  my anger problem...
but i have been trying to over come that angry problem...
i get angry lesser these days... but i dont think they realize it..haha lol...
i thought of those friends that i call "brother".
i wonder if they hate me behind, and just giving me a good image on the front? i thought so much that my eyes started to feel watery...
so i stopped and i told my self,

"I don't know what other people is thinking about,
but i know I'm doing the right thing to protect the ones i love.
Don't use your powers to hurt others,
having enough power to protect the ones you love is enough."

That is what that kept me going in all those hard time when i had problems with my friends or other people...
and also this is what kept me form unleashing my angry all the time...

well...
its not very early now...
so i better get resting or not i will get sick again=P
kkies, thats all i can think of in this situation anyway..><

wish everyone have a nice and happy day=3
peace^^V

Clarence out~

Changes is good=3

Yeah~ broke up around few month ago already! feeling all new and happy=3
at first it was like god damned sad...
but since i broke up, things changes slowly=3
my friends slowly gets to have more time with me, im slowly closer to them again=3
my gf last time always takes out all my time...morning time, break time, lunch time, even after school timeT.T
but now im a free man!!=P
im like a beast out a cage, going wild and all~
still i can't forget those annoying memories that she gave me, for breaking up with me for 5 times and get back together again...
but life without her was great!!^-^V *winks*
i wish life will go on so peaceful like now...
my sister offering me some jobs, i can earn some money and gain some experience~ and MUN, ahh MUN...*Model United Nations Conference* made me know so much people!! smart ones "Ian", funny ones "Adib", sweet and gorgeous looking ones "Shermaine". it was a very very nice event! i never regret at all for joining it, yes, it made me very very tired, a 3 day conference, but it was very fun!hehes=3
and these days i also knew alot of interesting people, like Jasmine, Jasmine, Nicole, and a girl that is cute but dont know her name, and Jasmine's bf=3
hahas~ life is just happy=3 alot of things to do, alot of events going aroundXD

thats almost all for now=3

Life is Great Without You=3 *winks*^^V
~~Axel~~

Feb 1 ~ 1:50am

I will never forget today...
I can still we were happily playing and talking to each other this afternoon...
I would never have imagine it would end up like this at night...
Everything has its start and ending...
Im not sad that it all ended...
Just regret i never treasure it enough while i have it...
I know no matter what i try, i would never forget what has happened tonight...
The second you put down the phone...
My tear started to roll down my cheeks....
I walked around my house, for no reason...
I have no idea what am i doing...
I was just like a empty shell with nothing inside...
My heart got only one space...
Only for one person...
And that is you...
If your not in that space, then no one will ever be in it...
Without you, my life is empty...
My eyes can only see black and white...
The world around me will become dull...
My emotions will be gone...
I can't smile...
I can't laugh...
I can't angry...
I can't sad...
I can't feel anything...
My heart will be numb...
Can a person really survive without a heart?
Without you is like cutting my heart out of me...
Forcing my body to move without a reason...
I can loose anything i ever have in my life,
but only you...
your the only thing i fear the most...
i really fear of loosing you...
because...
i really...
do...
love you...
very...
deeply...
forever...
and...
ever...
for life...
till eternity...
till forever...

Sign: Clarence...

Love Forever.

I have live for so long in my life...
You appearance changed me...
In the times i felt that everything is meaning less...
You came in and changed everything...
You made me want to be a better guy...
You made me realize how meaningful life is...
You are the only one i love...
I will always love you...
Till the sun never rise again...
Till the stars never shine again...
Till summer never comes again...
Till the day the world is no more here...
Till death fall upon me...
Everything comes and go...
Everything last very short...
Nothing last forever...
But my feelings towards you will never change...
And my love towards you will never fade...
As long as I'm living in this world...
I will never forget about you...
Because...
You will forever...
And ever...
Be in my heart...
Your beauty will last forever... 

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I hate crying, except for you...

Me, as a boy, i dont usually cry much...
i can still remember the last time i cried was when i was in primary 3 or 4...
I once promised my self that i would never cry for anyone ever again...
but you...
you made me cry...
your appearance in my life has changed me completely...
you changed my self...
you made me realize that someone love me...
i actually gave up my playboy life because of you...
you make me realize how great it feels to truly love and be loved by someone else...
the me that use to have 8 girl friends at a time has changed...
the me that use to say bad word in every single sentence has changed...
you made me want to be a better man...
you are like an angel from heaven, sent to protect and change me...
you are like the missing pieces of my life...
without you, i wont be complete...
you complete me...
your the one i love the most...
if i'm forced to choose a million times who i love, i would always choose the same answer...
and that is you...
if i had a wish...
i would wish that i can give my wish to you...
because i rather give my life to you...
i will always stay beside you...
even if i die, i would forever protect you from heaven, and forever be your guardian...
every time i see your eyes...
i felt new and happy again...
meeting you is the best thing that ever happened to me...
if you never been in my life, i dont even dare to imagine what am i now...
i promise i would live longer then you...
cause i dont want you to have a single second feeling alone in this world...
im sorry i didnt met you earlier while you needed someone...
im happy while i see you smile...
while im sick, you are my medicine...
while im alone and feeling useless...
your the star that shines upon me and give me strength again...
what im trying to say in this whole thing is...
that i would love you...
till the end of my life...
i love you...

Missing the pass memories...

hmm...
shoo fast, 2008 come le..
still kinda miss the form 2 life..
but juz a blink of eye, form 3 also pass leT.T
next year form 4 le...
i wanna go art stream...
but someone dont let me..
force me go scienceT.T
well...
i think its good to if i go science stream...
she would want me to go science too anyway...
well..
i can still remember the first day of 2007...
when i juz got into my class, i know no body there...-.-
kinda "bu xi guan"
but slowly all become friends le...
their all very friendly...
thought i know some don't really like me..T.T
but its ok..
im sure they have a good reason to hate me^^
haha...
i also met the person i love this year^^ yay, shoo happie~!^^
shes a nice girl...
kind...
caring...
hehe^^ i feel like the luckiest guy in da world!!^^
also her best friend...
a very nice person^^
her best friend is also kind, caring, and friendly like her^^
they are all good people, thats for sure^^
well...
guess its 2008 now...
hope its a nice year to everyone^^
form 4 now, cant play much..-.-
quited all my online games-.-
the only thing i have time to care about is my girl friend and my studies-.-
and also her best friend^^
well..
im not a very good writer..
so...
thats for all now^^
hope everyone all the best in 2008!!!XDXD

~How to pass bored time~

I always get bored at home...
doing nothing...
watching TV...
eating nachos....
Especially in the holidays...
nothing to do at all....
And thats why i made up this 3 interesting way to pass our free time!!^^
Do it if u dare...

Ways on how to pass ur time(Do it if you dare)
Bored on afternoon  Try this...
1- call Mc Donald and Pizza hut, spam their orders for example : Order 30 Hawaiian pizza, 80 double cheese burger.
Then, prepare to defend your home...
2- Go on a survival mission!!
Dig a hole on your sofa, then stuck your self in, call someone to zip the sofa tight...
then try to survive in the sofa without anything at all...
If your lucky, you might have a chance if finding some nachos u left there, if your suck hard enough from there, you might also get some Moise...
3- Of course...
the normal and great ways to pass your time is to spend it with your friends...
find around 10-30 people, have them all dress in white, and walk around town at midnight time...
Then see the funny emotions people make when they walk pass you...

>>DO IT IF YOU DARE<<

(Note : if anything happens to you, its not my responsibility.)

~Axel~

ArE yOu An A**hOle?

Do you think you are an a**hole?
well...
read these below, and you will know...

THE BIRTH OF AN A**HOLE.

It all started one day when your parents were drunk and Dad attacked your nearly pass-out mom after she had finished her third glass of white zinfandel. From that auspicious debut, you began your life as a little bad-ass sperm attacking the ovum like it was day-old pizza. Spiting on all the other pansy sperm, you set up a base camp on that egg and spent the next nine months like a goddamn king. You were in warm haze the entire time, eating constantly, never worrying about blind dates, cheating girlfriends, or the female orgasm. In fact, it was so great there in the womb, when you finally got out, you knew you were going to spend the rest of your life trying to get right back in.

THE PUREST FORM OF A**HOLE

Regardless of what kind of sympathetic "nice guy" disease you're currently trying to purge from your system, you need to remember that you were a complete a**hole when you first shot out of Mom. Think about it: you shit when you wanted to and some chicks would clean it off your diapers. You cried like hell and made sure that nobody could sleep until you got what you wanted. You even puked on poeple who didn't feed you correctly. You were master of your domain, no nobody was about to f**k with you.
This is why infants are the purest form of a**hole. They understand that everyone is there to serve them, and they don't give a shit about anything but the next nipple they're going to suck on.

Ain't that just true or what?
Think about it...
^^

NOTE : its more for boys though....

All the stresssss~!

-.-
here is exam again...
dammit..
i never start study yet..
and tomorrow is exam liaoz...
shit...
i'm gotta pray whole night, and wish for 7A's...
-.-
what should i do?
my friend once told me...
if your not cheating, means your not trying hard enough...
thats kinda true..-.-
because...
if you tried your best and you can't do it, you can't just give up and take zero...
so, you gotta cheat=D
if you didn't cheat, means you gave up...
so...
i think his right=)
(p.s thats the bright side...)

Love is hurt?

hmm...
heard about my friend "sat lun" ...
Now he damn sad la...
He wrote a blog...after i read it...i felt damn sorry for that guy la...
hope the girl in his dream will accept him back le...
as he is also so willing to hange for her de...
hope she knows how suffering he is now...
thats all for now...
                                                                                                                 -Axel out-